Paralyzing Emotions

Paralyzing Emotions

I've burst every bridge standing

proud, ahead of me

still the memory of the blast

filling each drop of my invisible

sweat, the fear hides beneath

my bed, lets me fall a sleep

rejoice like a baby, in the fold of a sec

just to stir me up, buzzing as hell

in awareness, splinters later

There's no real solution

because I make my own ['utions]

and don't believe strangers' formulas

more than ads, priests or violins

behind phones aiming at your

moment of weakness

I've quit my own stories

dear you, embedder of fate

disciple of paralyzing emotions

pull yourself together

let's face the beast

But I've ruined every brick

sheltering my ego

rotten soil sealing the deal

I never agreed on.

Damn you're so whisky!

so vain, purple, blighted

as an idiot hiding within cerulean

blues, waiting for him to come

to laugh in disdain, loud and stupid

the opposite of me

of my personality; I had some hope

once... remember? my eyes got dimmed

vision                and so I thought others did too.

Distinctness was an injury

I keep the promise to myself

not being Godot, I exist!

Why shall I not overcome

my fear?

© 2014, José Eduardo Coelho